Quote inspired by JoJo Rabbit. Butterflies inspired by Garnet the Crystal Gem. And these feels I’m dealing with are inspired by life.
I’ve been thinking a lot about feelings lately. Today has been all over the place. I’ve laughed many times. I’ve all cried several times too. I’ve felt hope, then jealousy and despair, then gratitude, and finally an inkling of hope again.
And yeah, since I was half watching the hearings while I worked, I had some anger and frustration, too, as well as a little schadenfreude when my rep made a dumb comment and another rep had a snappy retort.
So many feelings all in one day, right? And all suddenly swarming, as Garnet sang. I don’t want to go into too many details here, but suffice it to say, I’m sure most normal people would have experienced the same range of emotion today given the same stimuli.
Lately I’m liking the idea of noticing feelings and appreciating them for what they could be trying to tell me, while also recognizing how ephemeral they can be. I can’t change how I feel. But my feelings surely will change with time.
I’m trying to stay more grounded in my beliefs. And where necessary, I’m challenging any beliefs that might be hurting me. The process doesn’t always produce the happiest feelings, but I’m confident I’ll be better off for it in the end.
And until that end, I’m doing my best to just live life for all it is.